He is gone.
The horse of a life time gone just like that.
He cantered down the hill as I brought them in from the field the herd had been spending their days in. He stopped and stood as the others went on ahead. I stopped and waited. Watched as he stood then wobbled slightly. His hind legs swayed side to side and I started to get nervous.
As he staggered I called the vet. She was coming. Would be there in a few minutes. A half hour in reality, no way to make it less.
Rusty fell violently side to side then went over backwards. He was gone while I stood there talking to the vet. She asked if I still wanted her to come, do a post mortem. That is not the time to be asking things like that. I just wanted her gone so I could convince my horse that he wasn’t. Not really. How could he be?
As I collapsed at his side the very earth raged against the injustice. The sun disappeared and the wind whipped with fury driving billows of dust across the sky.
Rusty has changed my life more than any one horse ever has. More than all other horses combined. He did so much in his short life. Born in a home that spoiled him rotten, he ended up unwanted and terribly behaved in a kill pen already at two. Forever Morgans picked him up there and I was lucky enough to be the one who got to foster him.
He came to me as an ugly baby, scrawny and plain. He was sweet and fearless, unless he didn’t want to. Then he would run through and over anything, he left me with rope burns and bruises from his bites every time I worked with him. Even in this he had more to offer than I ever realized at the time. In his refusal to conform he taught me to work with horses in completely new ways.
Which lead to trick training, a new job, and eventually his own Guinness World Record.
The trick training lead to writing about whorls and even to the books on whorls. All because of him.
Aside from his accomplishments he was just him. A strong presence in the pasture, he ruled with an iron hand. All horses lived in fear of him. He could be like riding a fire breathing dragon, all snorting and charging. Then with children he would drop his head and plod as quiet as could be. He will be missed for who he was, not just all that he could do. Rusty was truly one of a kind.
Rusty was brilliant and fierce and so incredibly gorgeous. He leaves behind him a gaping hole that is impossible to fill. He was my full partner in everything we did. As I struggle to comprehend all that is lost I will probably not reply to comments here, or anywhere. Talking about him hurts too bad at the moment. But please, if he touched you in some way, drop a note and let me know. I will try to read them.










































